Daydreams

I, these days wonder
what it would be like to be in this world with you,
to gauge the moon and scan the stars with you
to smell the sweet scent of rain washed skies
to feel the mushy earth after wards with you


What it would be like
to watch you walking from across the room
reading your lines, committing them to your silly head
to catch us in a ticklish moment,
where we can be kids again, smooth and innocent


So many ways i can see you
when i have nothing to build on but these words
In sock feet on the sofa, reading a paperback
my head in your lap
A shy smile as i wait in line for our orders
a glint in both our eyes
And always surrounding us a blanket of unspoken comfort
not always from touching,
just sharing the air together in the same room

Or simply idle chatter building up in swells
cascading in fountain with colorful lights
the night lit with the brilliance of our words
the fireworks of our conversations
dimming everything else

I wonder
if we are ever given a chance
will it be beautiful
or will it all backfire, leaving us sullen ..
yearning for the screen so swiftly pulled away
to descend and once more conceal us
i like to believe though
that we would be connected and never want to let go
i have always liked better the pain of letting go
than never having that whose loss will hurt.

It is hard to have this and live
its hard to accept fate thus
its hard, when your heart is dividing
forever